Miss Me Not
by: Tiffany King
My Review & Rating
September 10. 2014
4.5 "Hopeful" Stars
4.5 "Hopeful" Stars
Before you can love anyone, you have to learn to love yourself. For many this is one of life’s hardest lessons. Madison has been struggling with this since she was a child. Then again being shuffled from church program to church program by absent parents can leave any young child struggling with finding themselves. Madison tries over the years to get her parents attention. Nothing she does seems to matter and so dressing provocatively, drinking, smoking and partying with the older kids at thirteen becomes acceptable in her eyes. All along she had a plan. A simple plan, one that should have turned her world around, and finally brought her the attention from her parents that she sought instead exploded and her once awful world crumbled before her leaving her even more alone than ever.
Now seventeen, Madison makes a new plan. A pact with her one and only friend. A suicide pact. Madison is 1000% ready and prepared to follow-through with their plan until a fellow student named Mitch kills himself and steals her thunder. Witnessing the behavior of her fellow classmates many whom suddenly act as if they care and the entire school reacts to this tragedy, Madison feels as if the wind was stolen from her forward sail. Now all she can do is be thankful that no one was able to overreact at her funeral. Madison continued to break my heart. This girl is so shattered on the inside it would take a sledgehammer to the head to get her to see the light. Though she gives up on her plan, it’s not a quick or easy road in which she learns to be thankful for the life and the choices she is still able to make.
Madison never expected Dean. Being assigned a tutor should not have been a big deal. But when that tutor is a senior like Dean and he sets his sights on Madison, she has no choice but to give in. Dean shows her a completely new side to life. Happy families are only things that exist in sitcoms. Parents that love their children are only fictional and seeing Dean and his family is more than an eye-opening experience, for Madison, it’s more like entering the Twilight Zone. Dean has the best family, very Leave it To Beaver as she refers to them. I really loved his family and wish all of us were so lucky to be loved as unconditionally an without question as they all were. Madison is accepted with open arms and it was gratifying to see her change not only outwardly but as a person, her entire belief system shifting and becoming capable of love and emotions other than repulsion, self-hatred and loathing.
I’ve been amazed with other books by Tiffany King and Miss Me Not was no exception. I’ve had this book on my kindle for awhile and for whatever asinine reason, I kept scrolling over it. Thankfully, I wizened up and I could not be happier. Miss Me Not was a beautiful story that really touched on many rough and heartwarming topics. As a YA novel I think this book works appropriately at tugging the heartstrings of whoever is reading it. Madison is not a strong character, at least not initially. She has so much potential if she only can learn to let go of the past and embrace her future. Considering her life history the fact that she’s continued to live in such a sad state leaves its mark. Suicide is a real issue with young people and I think this book helps shed light onto the how and why young people feel this is their only way for happiness. There is no excuse, there is no reason and there is no coming back. Make sure those around you know how special they are to you and do what you can to stop bullying. Madison’s life is something no child should experience and even though this sounds like a running endorsement, we as human beings have the chance to help. Read this book, be amazed and share the love/pain. Life is not easy, we all know that. It is in each day that a new beginning is offered and we can either embrace the opportunity or let our fears stand in the way.