Author: Sibylla Matilde
Release Date: April 8. 2014
***** Mature Content, Abuse, Sexual Situations, Adult Situations, Strong Language *****
I
know I’m twisted. Growing up in a perfectly well-adjusted home, I don’t really
have an excuse. But no matter… I realize how messed up I am. And therapy can only
do so much.
I
pushed my boyfriend to violence, a violence he couldn't control. Sickly, I
almost liked it. So I pushed him more. Before long, the pain outweighed the
pleasure and the loss I sustained shattered me. So I ran. I’m now a bit
shell-shocked harboring a lot of guilt. My boyfriend is now my ex and wants
revenge. He wants me to pay for turning him into the monster he’s become. And I
still have a deviant yearning that I don’t understand. My own monster inside…
my own demon to battle.
I
can’t get close to anyone. I can’t give in and scratch that itch. I can’t wreck
someone else.
And
now there is Kian… my rescuer on a dark, painful night. He sees through my
pretense. He tries to pull me from my frightened isolation, to keep me from
becoming a victim. He forces me to face my warped desires and shows me that
pain doesn’t really have to truly hurt.
He
wants to show me a way to serenity. But I am afraid… Will I ruin a good man?
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My Review
April 6. 2014
4 Bad-is-Oh-so-Good Stars ★★★★
Copy provided by Author for Honest Review
I find reviewing this book a bit hard mostly because I think
the blurb makes it out differently than it actually is. Sure Brynn has issues
and her relationship with Kian is tested by them, but from the synopsis I got a
much darker and scary idea of what Brynn through her relationships should be
and how she handled them.
I enjoyed this book and the many different quirks each
character held. Brynn is so stuck on what she considers her fault in her past
relationships that seeing her try and start a new one is both worrisome and
scary. But Kian is neither of those things and since their first meeting involves
him saving her from a brutal attack from an ex, he wins extra stars in my book.
For Kian, Brynn has taken over his mind for longer than just
the night they met. Kian’s been watching Brynn for awhile now and can’t seem to
stop himself. Kian is super protective of Brynn even before they are
introduced. Call it immediate chemistry or understanding but Kian senses something
in Brynn, something that calls to him and makes him want to wrap her in his
arms and not let go. Kian’s protective side goes into overdrive and he’ll keep
her safe even if she doesn’t know it.
Brynn is running from a traumatic past and an ex that won’t
leave her be. She has one friend in the whole world and barely even a real
friend at that. When Kian enters her life nothing is the same. Sure the
chemistry is immediate but Kian is not willing to rush anything where she is
concerned, especially since he can’t and won’t deny the connection they share.
To Kian it’s inevitable that in time Brynn will be his and until that time he
will watch over her until she’s ready.
Kian was really too good to be true. He helps give Brynn
hope and faith in a world that has constantly put her down. He invites her to
learn to defend herself and with a little persuading she finally does. (How
anyone would not want to immediately jump on the chance of training with a
sweaty and shirtless Kian is beyond me, but eventually Brynn gives in.)
Overall I enjoyed the pacing of both the story and the
relationship. Everything happened at an even pace and didn’t seem rushed or
over the top. Kian is almost unbelievable with all his character traits as he’s
far to understanding and patient to be real. At the end of the day Kian just
wants the best for Brynn and if that means standing on the sidelines for an
undetermined amount of time he’ll suffer through it, blue balls and all. But to
be honest when these two finally do the deed it’s off the charts hot and only continues
to smolder. NA fans and fans of hot-badass book boyfriends commence the drool because
Kian is all that and more. Keep in mind the blurb makes the book seem much
darker than it is and though there are elements of abuse, it’s in no way
considered a Dark Read at least compared to the many you’re probably thinking
of.
Excerpt
His
hands slid along my jaw, just above my neck, and nudged my face up to
his. My eyes closed to shield him from the raw emotion he would see in
them. I waited for his words. A rebuff or a command. Something to start
the argument that was sure to follow.
But instead of hearing the growl of his voice, I felt his lips crash down on mine. And I blossomed beneath him.
My
arms frantically wrapped tightly around his waist. His kiss was
demanding, fervent and rough. My aching soul relished in the painful,
bruising force of his mouth on mine, the tight pull of his fingers in my
hair. Taking a few steps, he pushed me roughly up against the wall, and
I moaned as the rush of desire poured through me.
He knew. I needed him. I needed this.
Sibylla Matilde grew up in the mountain
valleys of Southwest Montana exploring the dusty Old West gold country on the
back of a horse. She attended a two-room schoolhouse beginning in 1st grade
& had the same teacher until she changed schools after 7th. Beginning at
about age 12, Sibylla discovered historical romance, feeding off of work of
Jude Deveraux & Lisa Kleypas. She loves a book that can make the reader run
the gamut of emotions, from the sweet glow of new love to gut-wrenching heartache.
She is a true romantic & always has stories floating around in her head,
living in a fantasyland until she writes them down to free them.
Music
is her emotional trigger. Growing up with a Wagnarian-loving mother, Sibylla
was raised to treasure music that digs deep into the psyche, drawing out
elation, sorrow, grief, desire. The soundtrack to her life includes many genres
spanning centuries. She looooooooves Thirty Seconds to Mars (rather
obsessively, actually... but, really, how can you NOT be crazy about this
guy!? Jared Leto. Shhh. ) & pimps them out
to all her friends through Spotify. She also delights in Met Opera HD
broadcasts at her local movie theater & hopes (listening Met?) to someday
see Diana Damrau reprise her role as Mozart’s Queen of the Night in Die
Zauberflöte.
Sibylla
lives with her husband and hero who saved her from her own calamitous, young-adult
self. He makes her laugh daily, even when things are tough. He's proved to her
that love really can heal a shattered soul. In 18 years, they have never had a
fight, although argue regularly with their two teenage kids who have,
unfortunately, inherited their father’s quick wit (unfortunate as it is a quick
wit that Sibylla, herself, definitely does not possess – there is a reason she
is a writer & not a stand-up comedian). They live a quiet life with their
two weird little rescued Chiweenies. Wait… teenagers & little yap-dogs? OK,
maybe not so quiet.
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